Dear John

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Dear John,

The morning light hasn't quite crept in yet, but I already know I cannot go through this day without you.  And yesterday, when I least expected to want you... I did.

I was suffering from the dull, sharp malaise of another debilitating headache... where these headaches came from, I do not know.  And as I watched my trusty Ariel take on the task of decorating our Christmas tree while I rowed with the other work slaves of the world, you crossed my mind and I knew I just had to have you.... right then.. right there...

You were the remedy I sought.

How do you do this to me, John?  Year after year... I always come back to you.... always.

It's true.

No matter how many other amazing songs come into my life, I cannot shake the love I have for John Cougar Mellencamp's Hurts So Good.

It just makes me a better person.

When my day is low, when my face is throbbing from a work-induced headache, or when I just need a pick-me up... a trusted 'dance-like-an-asshole' song... or just... that amazing chorus line that makes me sing obnoxiously loud... I come back to John.

John has not failed me.

Not once.

And as Ariel helped me get my life caught up, I knew we should be enjoying the sounds of the season... some music about sleigh bells ringing... and carolers and chestnuts or... stuff like that.

But I couldn't get on with my day without John... and an overdose of this new Ciara Jam, which makes me drive a little more dangerously every time I hear it while on the road.

What's your drive-dangerously song? Do you have a 'dance like an asshole' song? Or are you just too cool?

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