Yesterday I Struggled

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Yesterday I struggled to feel:

Motivated
Interested
Inspired
Content
Kind

Yesterday I struggled to stop checking my phone for someone else to make my day

Because I struggled to make my own day

Yesterday I struggled with willpower. I should have known it would be an off day when I got one of those delectable snowman cookies with my Starbucks coffee

Oh, how you thwart me, snowman!

Yesterday I struggled with patience as my perfectly beautiful daughter tested me by asking me for toast, after she asked me for cereal, after she asked me for a breakfast bar... All of which went uneaten... Just before a glass was broken on the floor. 



Yesterday I struggled to feel like myself, save for when I heard The Eagles' Hotel California followed by Lynard Skynard's Sweet Home Alabama followed by Survivor's Eye of the Tiger coming home from my mom's house after an overnight stay.  Seriously there is something so right on about my Pandora lately I wonder if the designer is on E-Harmony and available. 

Yesterday I struggled with guilt.

Yesterday I struggled with loneliness despite being anything but alone. 

Yesterday I struggled with having any desire to clean... And that's always a sign that I'm having an off day. 

Yesterday I struggled and today I did not. 

Except for the cleaning part... You know... it's an ongoing struggle... 

Comments

barry said…
I struggled along with you. I don't know how many others read this, but I read every word. Mine would have been the call you were waiting for.
November 26, 2013 at 10:27 PM
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